the dark goddess + wanting what you want


Let yourself want what you want.

These words are so simple — yet weirdly edgy, right?

Last year, while teaching at the Gathering of the Shamans in Sedona, I met the amazing Whitney Freya. I was teaching on soul healing and nature (as I do) and she was teaching on art as a catalyst for transformation (as she does).

I went to Whitney’s workshop, of course. And during this experience, Whitney guided us through a powerful journey to meet the Goddess Kali.

Kali, the dark goddess who comes to us from Hindu traditions, she who destroys demons and anything that prevents us from remembering our true nature.

Kali, who had a serious message for me: I needed to let myself want more.

It’s as if she unleashed a hunger that already existed within me — a gaping mouth that I’d been feeding crumbs when it really wanted the whole damn meal.

It turns out that the energy it takes to suppress our soul-aligned desires is more harmful to our well-being than we realize.

Our energy becomes depleted and it’s almost as if our souls slip away: Not so much as with the old shamanic models of the soul actually leaving the body — but more like parts of our divine blueprint for this lifetime start to dim and retreat until we no longer remember they’re there.

Not letting ourselves truly want what we want is a form of self punishment, and this fiery Aries era is bringing us a cosmic opportunity to end that pattern.

If you still feel a little hesitant about all this — I get it. Like really, really get it.

In large part because of how this idea has been warped in our capitalist, colonizer culture.

Our news feeds are full of people who let themselves want what they want and destroy the world along the way. And it is really easy to get caught up in cultural conditioning that obscures our true desires, replacing them with a frenzy of never-enoughness.

So part of our work is to decondition, deprogram, and rewild ;)

In this article, I break down the top five internal obstacles so many of us need to work through when it comes to simply “letting ourselves want what we want” — and a few steps for softening any resistance.

For now, I want to invite you to a few really lovely free and low cost opportunities to study with me LIVE.

There will be replays for both, but comping live means I can answer questions and offer personal insights on the spot. See below for info :)

Many blessings and I hope to see you at one of these live events soon!


The Living Web: Restoring Soul Coherence in a Fragmented World

A Free 90-Minute Online Workshop Earth Day, April 22 at 4pm PT | 7pm ET

I’ll be sharing a deeper exploration of what it means to come into soul coherence in partnership with your own true nature, the Earth, and the cosmos. This workshop is experiential, meaningful, and FREE.

>>>Sign up now, and grab the replay if you miss us live.

21 Steps to Activate Your Psychic Abilities

75-Minute Event | only $22 | lifetime access
Thursday, April 30 at 11 a.m. PT | 2 p.m. ET

Ever had a sudden flash of knowing about a person or a situation, only to have your "logical" mind immediately jump in and shut it down? Learn how to really listen to your intuitive hits in this super fun and interactive workshop :) .

>>>Register for the live workshop with DailyOM!


★★★ If you’re ready for the full, transformational experience, the Wild Alchemy Practitioner Program is enrolling now. ★★★

>>> Learn more & apply here.

600 1st Ave, Ste 330 PMB 92768, Seattle, WA 98104-2246

To update your preferences and only receive the monthly newsletter and transactional emails: click here

Unsubscribe to never hear from me again, including informational emails about any products you've purchased.

Join my Substack list to receive updates when I publish a new article.

Alchemessence

Alchemessence is your portal into the wild spirit within. As a shamanic practitioner, mystic, botanical alchemist, and artist, I offer an integrative pathway for awakening to your true essence through spiritual rewilding.

Read more from Alchemessence

Flower essences are such gentle, accessible, and subtle medicines. So subtle in fact that it never ceases to amaze me how well they actually work! I know it shouldn’t come as a surprise anymore, but somehow it still blows my mind that water can pass on a gift from nature that shifts our entire way of being in the world. In the past few months, I’ve been flooded with reviews saying how much my flower essences have helped people. Here are just a few: On Snakeskin Fritillary: I haven't tried all...

This is a wallflower. It might look unassuming, but its fragrance is divine. I love wallflowers. They seem to be one of the few wildflowers that thrives in our high desert climate, and this year they filled my garden with stunningly bright orange blooms. I’ve been creating an enfleurage of their aroma — it already smells divine, though it will be a few seasons of blooms before it’s ready to use. Enfleurage is the slow, methodical, luxurious process of placing aromatic blooms on neutral...

A bee rests on a cluster of yellow flowers.

Rewilding the Temple Juniper Stokes • June 2026 We live in a world of duality. Yin and yang, feminine and masculine, dark and light — it is the coming together of two dual forces that holds the generative energy to create something new. Yet when duality becomes polarized, it causes so much of our human pain. Good or bad. Right or wrong. This or that. In reality, good and bad are part of one greater whole. Same with desire and aversion. Joy and grief. When we forget this, the fractures caused...